Becoming 30 (and single, I must add) is one of the fears that many have. I was asked a million times by my closest ones about how I felt about becoming 30. Two years ago I answered them with a simple shrug that expressed, “So what?”. A year ago I answered with, “Hmm… I think there’s nothing much to be felt. It’s just becoming a year older, like when I turn 29 in the next 6 months, right?”

Now I’m only 6 months away from the big three-oh, but the question begins to haunt. Not in a scary kind of way, but in a reflective one. Beginning on the gathering 3 months ago that I had with my closest friends who were still under 30 at that time, we began to exchange thoughts on how we must felt of becoming 30. Two of my friends became the laugh of the evening because apparently they have never been kissed! And they both also happened to have never been on a real relationship before. Having fallen under our pressure, the two then made a pact of kissing each other if the girl’s time is up (that is in April 2011, so I bet she is looking at her watch very hard now, wishing she could somehow stop it from ticking away and away LOL).

Now I’m a bit luckier in that area than two of my friends. Been kissed? Check. Been kissing? Check. Been in a serious relationship? Check. So obviously my worries should not rely on what my past has become, but what I have done in the past that can inspire me to be a better 30-ish girl.

What does turning 30 mean to me? Well since that evening with my friends, before sleeping I try to do a little reflection and write it on my blackberry note (that is if I’m not to sleepy or too lazy). The reflection results in a set of points of what I would have become by the time I’m turning 30, and here it is:

A. Able to honestly acknowledge my worst traits

B. Recognize what my fortés are

C. Know the best decisions I have ever made so far

D. Know the biggest mistakes I have made in the past and promise to grow out of them

E. Have ever been truly in love

F. Know what my passion is (or passions are)

G. Be my own bestfriend

Later on, the list could grow or shrink, depends on my contemplation result. I hope it won’t grow up, because to realize the 7 points above will already have me dug deeper into memories that are guaranteed will not all be sweet.

Ok, that’s just the bigger picture for now, I will write my thoughts on each point in a separate writings. But first it’s your turn. What does “becoming 30” mean to you? 😉